Thursday, April 28, 2011

Lamentations 3: 20-29

Remember my affliction and my wandering, the (Y)wormwood and bitterness.
20Surely (Z)my soul remembers
And is (AA)bowed down within me.
21This I recall to my mind,
Therefore I have (AB)hope.
22The LORD'S (AC)lovingkindnesses indeed never cease,
(AD)For His compassions never fail.
23They are new (AE)every morning;
Great is (AF)Your faithfulness.
24"The LORD is my (AG)portion," says my soul,
"Therefore I (AH)have hope in Him."
25The LORD is good to those who (AI)wait for Him,
To the person who (AJ)seeks Him.
26It is good that he (AK)waits silently
For the salvation of the LORD.
27It is good for a man that he should bear
The yoke in his youth.
28Let him (AL)sit alone and be silent
Since He has laid it on him.
29Let him put his mouth in the (AM)dust,
Perhaps there is (AN)hope.

I don't even understand this passage. I don't know how anyone can wait silently. What does that really mean? I can pretend I'm not hurting. Lord, your going to hear about it! I'm not good at waiting, but who is? I"m not good at being silent. I'm loud in thought, song and opinion. I'm prideful. I'm mindful of Job and what the Lord said to him.

Job 40: 1-14

1Then the LORD said to Job,
2"Will the faultfinder (A)contend with the Almighty?
Let him who (B)reproves God answer it."

3Then Job answered the LORD and said,
4"Behold, I am insignificant; what can I reply to You?
I (C)lay my hand on my mouth.
5"Once I have spoken, and (D)I will not answer;
Even twice, and I will add nothing more."

God Questions Job
6Then the (E)LORD answered Job out of the storm and said,
7"Now (F)gird up your loins like a man;
I will (G)ask you, and you instruct Me.
8"Will you really (H)annul My judgment?
Will you (I)condemn Me (J)that you may be justified?
9"Or do you have an arm like God,
And can you (K)thunder with a voice like His?
10"(L)Adorn yourself with eminence and dignity,
And clothe yourself with honor and majesty.
11"Pour out (M)the overflowings of your anger,
And look on everyone who is (N)proud, and make him low.
12"Look on everyone who is proud, and (O)humble him,
And (P)tread down the wicked where they stand.
13"(Q)Hide them in the dust together;
Bind them in the hidden place.
14"Then I will also confess to you,
That your own right hand can save you.

All these things are true. But.... I'm not there yet. I'm still crying every day when I open His word. I have a hard time praying. Having the composure to pray anything, but "Help me God!" or "I really wanted him. Why did you take him from me?" I know the truth in my head. My heart needs to follow.

1 comment:

Connie, the daisyhead said...

Praying for you, girl! I had no idea. I've been catching up on my blog hopping. If you need an ear, feel free to email or call.